Tabby by Liz

Goodbye for now my love ”

I can’t think. I can’t sleep. I can’t breath. Everything has changed and the pain is unbearable.

I miss you so much that it takes every ounce of strength to hold back tears. Tears that never seem to want to stop flowing. I donÆt want to cry but I do. The tears burn my face and it hurts but they keep coming hour upon hour minute upon minute.

In this place everything is a reminder…a reminder of how much I miss you…a reminder of how much I love you…a reminder that you are gone forever.

Remnants of you are all over. Your fur is still on my bed sheets on the carpet and on my clothes. When I see it I want to kiss it but I can’t. I want to kiss you but I can’t.

Pictures of you are all around. There is a split second though when I first see one that I forget. Then I remember again and I look away. ItÆs too painful to see you so beautiful and to realize that your beauty no longer exists in my life.

I remember the last kiss I gave you. It was on your cheek and you closed your eyes and I knew you knew I was there with you. You were warm and it felt so nice.

I miss your cheeks. I miss your eyes. I miss the fur on your eyebrows that I would kiss a dozen times a day. I miss your paws and your little crooked tail. I miss your scent of freshly washed clothes. I miss your most gorgeous voice. I miss you sleeping by my side every night. I miss feeding you brushing you and watching you play. I miss you drinking from the fish bowl and your love for cookies. I miss you sitting in the sun. I miss you being there every time I open the door. I miss seeing you and touching you and loving you. I miss every time we spent together and those we wont get to spend. I miss you brightening my day my life
my world.

I donÆt even remember my life without you we were together for so long. I donÆt want to imagine it without you but I have to – because that time is now. You will always be in my heart wherever I go whatever I do I will be thinking of you. Thank you for being everything to me
my best friend
and my little gorgeous girly.

Goodbye my love I love you now
forever and all the days
in between.

~Love and loads of kisses
Your sis Liz