It’s been over six years since you entered my life and left so abruptly. Don’t think that I have forgotten you all. The experience will remain with me always. We all boarded a rollercoaster of soaring highs and crashing lows the day you all were brought to us. Triumph and tragedy all in a meager few days. The first time I saw you my heart fluttered with adoration while crying out in agony over the horrified condition you were in. Stunted nearly hairless consumptive little figures sickly hollowed-out faces so small and fragile. Eight weeks old and no milk teeth to show for it. God knows I tried. We all did. All those little victories of good feedings and new found strength to run around and frolic finally cutting those baby teeth they just weren’t enough to combat the long-term effects of relentless starvation and disease. Even to this day I am still haunted by the memory of your tiny dying bodies in my arms of your complete and utter helplessness and mine. But we got to keep two of your brothers. Thomas your brother Dylan has your eyes. I often find myself thinking of you when I look at them. So young so small so innocent so beautiful. Although you couldn’t stay with us I am still greatful that at least for a few days God let me hold little pieces of Him in my arms.
I STILL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALL!!!
-Angie
| Thomas Gwedolyn Lizzy |
| August 1994 |
| Angie |