It has been five days since my baby left me on her journey to the eternal life. There is not even a moment that I don’t think about her and tears just won’t stop coming down. I always called Tobie by many names, “my daughter”, “my beautiful girl” and “lady”, and she always responded by walking toward me with her tail right up and acknowledging me. She was my shadow. She loved me so much that some times it made me feel ashamed that may be I did not love her back as much.
I remember that once I caught Tobie in the Kitchen playing with a Windex bottle (she was only 1.5 year) and freaked out. I was crying worried to my stomach that she might have been poisoned. Called 911 but then she was all OK, running around in a few moments and talking talking like she always did. Every time I said a prayer she sat by me. Every time I came home she was behind the window waiting for me and every time I opened the door of the frig she was there begging for wet food!
Tobie never complained about me grooming her, giving her medicine or any thing else. She just trusted that momy loved her so much that she would never hurt her. Tobie was present in every single moment of my adulthood life through all the bad and good times until she left this earthy life.
I saw Tobie’e life perish in front my eyes in a freak accident while she was playing with a laser pointer.
I subbed and subbed and begged her to stay with me but there was nothing that I could do. Since that night there is not a moment that passes by that she is not with me. I dreamed her just recently. She looked content and seemed like she had found her way to the eternal home where God will protect her for ever.
Tobie; my baby, your love will never leave my heart. I will see you again some times from now.
Your momy
God protect you
| Tobie |
| 26, June 2003 |
| Shadi |