I fell in love with you the moment my eyes saw you….You were playing with your sister, and quite the rambunctious little one. When we got you to your new home, you were so scared of us, but that soon changed. You were such a sweet puppy and you kept us busy too. You have always made us laugh, at times cry, and most importantly, you taught us the true meaning of unconditional love.
When you were just 2 ½, you had your first and last litter of puppies, and oh, what a great mommy you were. You taught me a thing or two on motherhood. You had the patients of a saint when it came to your spunky crew.
When you were just 4 yrs old, you began your struggle with various health problems that hurt us as much as they hurt you. First, it was incognitance. Because of you being spayed, your poor bladder would just leak whenever; which you hated because for a while you couldn’t sleep in mommy’s bed; but medications helped with that. Then, during a pre-surgical blood work up, we found that you had come down with K9 hepatitis, which we believe we caught in the early stages as you responded great to your medications…You poor thing!!! You had to start taking so many pills and go into the vets every 3 months for a blood work up just to see how your liver was doing… I always hated seeing the look in your eyes when you saw that needle coming; but you were always such a good girl, and took it in stride. You did better than I ever could.
You endured so much pain, including losing your daughter Raven just 2 weeks after her 2nd Birthday when she was hit by a car. You were so depressed about that for a while. I hated to see your grief, but we grieved together. You two always made us laugh with your silly games of “stalking”each other….quite the comedians, you two.
Then, last June we found the lump. Every time I looked at it, my heart skipped a beat as I had a feeling it wouldn’t turn out to be good….and the day they went to remove the tumor, you’re heart was not acting right, so they wouldn’t put you under to remove the lump. Test after test later, the vet said it appeared you had the beginning signs of heart disease, which could be deadly. This crushed us; as I was in no way prepared to even think of letting you go. But, they didn’t see any cancer in your lungs at that time from the chest x-rays of your heart….we were so hopeful it wasn’t cancerous.
After horrible reactions to the different heart medications they tried on you, we then took you to the local Veterinary School for further tests. Upon a chest x-ray from your left side this time, they found a growth in your other lung, which they then diagnosed as cancer and they only gave you 3 short months to live….How could such a beautiful, wonderful, loving girl be inflicted with so much pain…it just wasn’t fair!!!
You, the strong trooper that you were, fought and fought and gave us those 3 months back in October; then another Christmas in 2004, and you were doing so well, and all the examinations showed you’re lungs still sounded good, even though you had cancer there too; so we were then hopeful for one more of your Birthdays with you on March 29th; but God decided on March 8th, 2005 that it was time to call you home….I will NEVER forget watching the life leave your eyes that night….it was the most horrifying thing I’ve ever had to witness. But, the good Lord spared us some agony that night. You weren’t alone when your heart gave in to the disease, and you didn’t have to suffer from the long-term effects of cancer. You also passed away quickly and with less pain than if your cancer had totally ravaged your little body. I’m also grateful that we didn’t have to decide when the “right time” was to let you go; but still, all of this doesn’t make your parting any easier on us, and I may have been selfish, but I was still hopeful that by some chance, they’d made a mistake with your diagnosis, especially when you gave us 7 ½ months instead of the measly 3 they gave you.
You were such a wonderful Doberman. You loved all kids, our other dogs and cats that we’d had over the years, and found solace in your humble little home. You loved going camping with us and were thrilled with going for walks, even on the hottest summer days. You would play your “silly game” with us and turn your butt towards us and just look back at us until we would gently potch you on your behind, then you’d run around like a mad woman acting silly. Your heart was made of pure gold, but unfortunately, even gold isn’t the strongest material in the world.
No other Doberman will ever compare to you, and you will be in our hearts and minds forever. I wish you could have been with me forever in body as well, but God decided he wanted you with him more. You had such a short life that just wasn’t fair to a wonderful girl like you. I feel as if you were robbed of the healthy, beautifully long life you deserved. Unfortunately, God wanted you too. I know in my heart that we gave you a wonderful life and not only were you our beloved pet, but you were our daughter, our sister, our friend, our soul mate; and of course, our best friend. My life will never be the same now that you’re gone, but I wouldn’t want to have lived my life without experiencing you. You are and always will be my beautiful, loving Macey Mae….and no one or nothing will ever compare.
You will be eternally missed by Mom, Dad, Bethani and Chase; but now you can be back with your loving daughter Raven, who you missed so much, and Bruttus, you’re loving playmate. You all can now run in the grass by the Rainbow Bridge until God allows me to come run with you. I will miss you for the rest of my life. Even though my heart has a huge gapping hole in it now that will never be repairable, I still would never take back the love and friendship we had.
Forever in our hearts and loved eternally....
| Macey Mae |
| Stacey, Jim, Chase & Bethani |