Hi Everyone, It’s Me Sammy
Guess Where I Am
In Heaven
I Got My Angels Wings
Dec. 22, 09
Hi,
Boy it sure is awesome here, I will be waiting to see all of you when you arrive. It really is nice but I sure do miss my mommy and all of you.
Thank you for being so kind to my mommy while I was sick. It was hard for the both of us but I am finally free of that pain.
The day that I had to go to the Vets, my mom was so special, she took me to see all the places that she and I use to go to. You know, I had those fancy 4 pillows in the car so that I could see out the window. Mom knew I loved seeing the world. [ By the way, Mom said I sure was a brave boy at the Vets. She held me right until I left for heaven. That was so hard for her but she loves me that much]
One spot where we use to walk she decided to let me go for one last time but I was so weak that I could not do it. But I sure did have fun looking one last time at “our” fun spots. We even drove by the house 2 times and then drove in the field out back, of course you all know how much I loved that area to walk. It was kinda funny, Mom almost got stuck in the snow but we made it out. And yes I did get to see snow for one last time.
I remember when I first moved to this place, I was so sad to leave our other home cuz there were so many people there that loved me and I as well, loved them. I remember Mommy would kiss and hug me every night saying, it would be just as nice here for me. You know what, she was so right. A few weeks after I moved here, I found all of you wonderful friends/family that loved me just as much. And dang, you sure did spoil me with all those yummy treats.
You did not know this but when Mom would take me out to go to the bathroom, I would come in and if I heard the elevator I would look up at Mom, and she would give me the nod, off I went to say hi to you. Or if I heard voices in the community room, again I would look up at Mommy and she would nod, saying it is ok., go say hi to your friends.
I really did love all of you. It was awesome how you treated me, you would tell me how good I was, or you would give me one of your special pats or hugs. You always made me feel so special. I loved all the Christmas cards you sent, how special you were to always have my name on the card too. Florance, that really special card that you gave me with the 5.00 bill to have mom buy me a treat, well, Mommy was going to put that towards my cremation, which would have meant a lot to me because I will always be with mommy when she too is cremated. But you know my sensitive mother, she decided to keep the card and the money together and put it in her bible , this way , she will see it every Sunday when she goes to church. I think that is a great idea, hope you do too.
And how did you like that display out side our door? Mommy did that just for me, she knew it would be my last Christmas and she wanted to have something special in my honor.
the people that lived behind us, I knew they loved me too. They always took that extra special time just to say hi to me. Those things were so important to me and boy, my new friends here are going to have to listen to me brag about all of you.
Remember how we would all sit outside if it was a nice day. You use to say I was the Labonte Apartments official greeter. I remember if someone got out of their car, I would walk up the walk way to greet them and then walk them back to the front door. Dang, that was fun especially because I knew I was making someone smile and you know how I loved doing that.
No one was ever a stranger to me once we met. I was lucky, everyone loved me, so from the time I met those strangers, I was then a forever friend. My mom always said that I had a special way with people, I could melt anyone’s heart. In fact, ask Raylene. J. I was sitting out front with all of you and she got out of her car, I did not know that she had such a terrible fear of animals. Oh my gosh, I remember how she got so scared when I went up to her. But, in time, that all changed, She actually started to let go of that fear, in fact, she even later started to give me bones. I was so happy that I helped her realize that not all dogs are bad. Of course, as Mom says, I was never a dog, I was her 4 legged son.
Raylene, seeing you say hi to me whenever you came to visit your mother, just melted my heart. I wanted you to know that I was a nice boy and never would have hurt you. I always felt sad that you were so scared, I didn’t want you to feel that way cuz I liked you a lot.
My Aunt Georgia arrived her on the same day, 2 months ago. When I got here, she was so happy to see me. It is nice because she loved me a lot and I know I will be taken good care of until my mommy arrives. In fact, that is one thing that she did ask me, to be sure to be waiting for her at the gate when she arrives.
For all of you that I didn’t get to know, well J you did kinda know me a little because I know my mommy use to brag about me to anyone that would listen, lol.
What I wanted to say was that I am sorry we didn’t meet, I know you would have fallen in love with me, I am just that kind of guy J and you would have been my forever friend.
To all of to all, thank you for the love, support, hugs, kind words and caring hearts. You made me feel so special, so so loved. Heck, we can’t forget to thank you for those yummy treats too.
I wanted to say good bye to all of you but I was so sick that mommy did not have time to get you altogether. I know you will feel sad to know you will not see me again but remember, we will meet again, someday. Get ready , because I will have plenty of “licks” waiting for you.
I will miss each and everyone of you.
Love, hugs and licks forever and please don’t ever forget me, tuck me in your hearts so at any moment you will always have a memory of me.
Sammy
This was one of the hardest day for me
Sammy, as you know, had been sick but never did I think he would become as sick as he got. When we got up this morning, I noticed that he was rushing to get outside. Once we were there, his stools were watery and red. I knew today was going to be his day to get his well deserves wings.
He has stopped eating 3 days ago, but did drink a lot. Today was difficult to see because when he did drink, it would come up. My heart just cried and cried, my baby did not need to be this sick, he did not deserve this to be happening to him.
I medicated him, called the Vets, made a appointment to bring him in, then he and I just laid on the floor, me telling him how much I loved him, how happy he had made me, and how I use to love it when he made me laugh. I would start laughing and he would just wiggle that tail even faster. I also reminded him that in the 141/2 years that I was blessed to have him in my life, I only heard him bark about 4-5 times, his thing was to wiggle that little tail, that was his way of saying ,” I am so happy”.
I met Sammy when he was about 7 months old. He had been bought by a man that abused him, He was then sold to a pet shop where a dear friend of mine worked.
I had recently lost another dog and a friend of mine said,“you need to get”out so off we went. She had to go to this pet store and as I walked in there was my friend that I had not seen for awhile. We chatted while my other friend went about her business. Once we got ready to leave, my friend said to this other friend of mine, “ You don”t know of anyone who has a dog who needs a good home?”
My friend smiles and said, “yes I do”. She then told me about Chewy [ later my mom renamed him to Sammy.
She had bought him from the shop and taken him home but they had deicded that with their big dog, Sammy needed another home. It was my lucky day, I went over to see him that night, and it was love at first sight. He melted my heart in ways that I never thought possible.He filled a void that I never knew existed, When he came into my life he stole my heart in all ways., I never in a million years would have realized how fulfilled my life would become once Sammy had come into it.
We danced, together, I sang to him, believe it or not, lol, he loved hearing me. I would use his name in the song and his ears would just perk up as if to say, wow, this is a song about me. We took walks, rides when everyone was in bed, he and I would go out into the hall and I would play pass with him. We would giggle as he chased his toys and brought them back to me as if to say, Hey aren’t I smart.
He would always get his special treats and even at the end when he did not feel well,.
, the people at Burger King and Mcdonalds knew us, Sammy got to have his hamburger every night once he got sick.
We would talk, I do believe he know exactly what I was saying. If I lost something and was looking for it, he would just watch me, then when I found it, I would raise it in the air and say, Sammy I found it. His looks was special, like he was saying. “that is great mom”.
He would love the rides to Maine to vist my mother, of course why not, he was so spoiled and got to eat anything and everything.lol I remember how he always knew the hill that would take me to my mothers house. He would get so excited, rise off the pillows he was on and just look and look for that turn into her house. He was really one smart guy.
We would hug each other all the time, he would lick my face, his way of saying, I love you mommy. At night he sat on the couch with me, right against my leg. I use to pat him for hours. Up until the time he got sick he use to sleep with me but once he did not feel well,l it was uncomfortable so he slept on the floor. I had bought him several fleece blankets so he would not be cold. I sure did miss him every night that I would crawl in bed.
There would be times, that he would look at me, just before I shut the lights and I would see that tail going and I would say, “ you want to sleep with mommy tonight?” God love him, he would let me pick him up, then once I was settled, he would come up and kiss me, go to the bottom of the bed and make that cute little sound of his telling me, he needed to get down onto the floor. I really think he just needed/wanted the memories of sleeping with me as he use to do and to give me those good night kisses.
During the evening, I would always tell him how special he was and give him hugs. He never went a night without at least 8 hugs from me. Yes, he was my baby and always will be.
I will indeed miss everything about him. He taught me how to live, love, trust, and open my heart. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that this little man would bring me this much happiness and joy, he completed my life. I always knew I was loved.
He was the most gentle of dogs, if he was eating something, you could take it from him and he never would do a thing. He, was in my eyes, perfect.
I remember when we use to sit outdoors and some of you would say if I got up to do something, ,” he never takes his eyes of you. “ How true that was, he knew how much he was loved by me. But more importantly, I knew how much I was loved by him. We were such a great team, my life will never be the same without him.,never.
It was so lonely coming home and not being greeted by my handsome son or when I could not sleep, getting up and not having him there. I will miss him so very much.
He was such a brave boy, when he was sick, you never would have known. He always had that look for me, watched my every move and acted like he was fine. He was indeed, a awesome 4 legged son that I could not have been any prouder of.
I will also miss every morning that I would comb my hair, he would just sit there and wiggle his tail as if to say, hey don’t forget me. He has his own brush in the bottom draw and I would slowly open it and say, wow, look what mommy found then I would comb his hair and tell him how pretty he looked when I would put on my deodorant, it was so funny, he would sit there and lift one paw as if to say, “ me too” so I would put some under his arm. He just knew, what was good for mom was good for him. Those are just some of the memories that will always be in my heart. My life will never be the same, my loss is now God’s gain.
Sammy left this earth with one of the greatest gifts ever, that of knowing he was loved by me and all of you. He was a happy 4 legged son.
Thank you for letting me tell you some of who my 4 legged son was and the memories that we shared.
The South Berwick Veterinary Hospital and Dr. Matchett along with her staff were the best. They let me cry and never allowed me to feel “crazy” for doing it. They were such a comfort to me and to Sammy. They gave us time together which was wonderful and Sammy got the best of care.
Some of the last things I said to Sammy were,
1] I love you so much and I will miss you
2] Be sure to look for Aunt Georgia, she will take care of you
3] be sure to become one of the brightest stars so every night that I look up I will see you and send you a kiss.
4] Please be waiting at the gate when I come home
And lastly, every and I mean every night Sammy heard these same words.
I love you
You’re such a good boy
You’re such a smart boy
You’re such a pretty boy
Your mommy’s boo boo
Your Sammy Dickinson and I am mommy Dickinson
Then I would say ”sleep well, see you in the morning,“so my dear beloved Sammy here one more time are those words to you although I know I will be saying them for years to come
I love you.
You are such a smart boy.
You are such a good boy.
You are so pretty.
Your mommy’s bow bow.
Your Sammy Dickinson and I am mommy Dickinson.
Sleep well and see you in the morning.
Sammy will always be alive as long as I am breathing. I love and miss you more than words can express. Be sure to be at the gate to greet me home,Iwhat a day that will be. Remember I asked you to shine real brightly everynite so I will see that bright twinkle and I will know you are watching over me
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