Allegra It’s 12:35 p.m. and it has now been two days since you passed on. I miss you more than words can say baby! I keep expecting to see you. When I come home and put the key in the door unlocking it and swinging it open I expect to see your loving face looking at me with your tail wagging so happy that I am home. Then I remember you’re gone and it hits me like a stone in the heart. When I walk to my bathroom I’ll occasionally find myself peeking around my bedroom door to check on you expecting to see you lying on your bed sound asleep. Then I remember you’re no longer on Earth and I begin to cry. Oh how I miss you my sweet precious baby!!
Yet despite all of my pain I know in my heart and in the very deepest part of my soul that I did the right thing in letting you go. You were suffering. I couldn’t let that go on because I love you more than anyone in this world. It would have been selfish and cruel not to put you out of your misery. I feel so blessed to have been there when you died. I thought it would be so hard to watch you die but it turned out to be such a comfort. I live in the knowledge that my face and my eyes were the last thing you ever looked upon.
I know that you are on the Other Side now sugar. I would have had some doubts about that before I watched you die but because of that experience I no longer have any doubts. As the medicine took effect I looked deep into your eyes and knew exactly when you passed on. Your eyes widened slightly cleared and then I saw your soul! It was the most beautiful experience of my life and I’ll cherish it always! Now you are in Heaven. You are strong you are health and you are active. I bet you are running around Heaven as I write this driving all of the Angels crazy! Though it’s probably more likely that you’re making them smile:-) Be well baby. Be happy sugar. I love you precious! I’ll see you again someday and you had better be waiting for me when I cross over!:-)
Love your mommy with skin
Jennifer