Bono by Gillian Kelly / Mummy

To my beloved friend, Bono.

I wish I could have been there
The hour that you died,
I wish I could have held you
And rested by your side.

I wish I could have helped you
And been with you that day,
Instead of coming home to find you
Fading fast away.

And how you wheezed and gasped
And shrivelled up in sorrow,
I wrapped my arms around you
Our last day, no tomorrow.

And I sobbed as I cuddled you
And told you ‘Mummy’s here’,
And I whispered to you, talked to you
As your fur soaked up each tear.

And I’m sorry that all I did
Was fret and moan and cry,
And beg you as you suffered
As I willed you ‘Please don’t die’.

And I held you in the car
As we rushed you to the vet,
But part of me already knew
That I was losing my much-loved pet.

And as the vet examined you
You looked into my eyes,
And again I whispered ‘Mummy’s here’
I’m sorry that I lied.

For I left you all alone with them
Even though you needed me so,
And I didn’t kiss your little head
I just let you go.

I’m sure if you could have
You’ve have asked me to stay,
And yet I didn’t listen
Instead I turned and walked away.

Selfish beings we humans are
We shrink away and hide,
Yet you have been my special friend
Always by my side
It wasn’t long before you slipped away
Alone, ailing, afraid,
I should have stayed with you
Instead you died, betrayed.

Today I saw your little body
I went to say goodbye,
And I wrapped my arms around you
And I swear I thought I’d die.

I breathed in your lovely scent
And buried my face in your hair,
And told you over and over how sorry I am
That I had not been there.

And as I held your little paw
And stroked your tiny brow,
I felt assured and calm
And I whispered ‘I’m here now’.

There was an assuring comfort
To rest there on your side,
There was a sense of ease
To have you there, consoling me
That you were here, you’d always be
And it’s ok, because your pain is gone
And to be strong, and carry on.

My beloved Bono; this void is immeasurable

 

I've dropped a tear in the ocean.
The day you find it, is the day I'll stop missing you.