" Brave One "
1988 ------- 1998
You disappear from my life
Like a thief into the night
You have no right to vanish
Without a trace-nowhere in sight.
How can I grieve you when I know not what's become of you?
Are you still here lurking somewhere in the shadows
Or did you find another love another home
Or worse were you taken from me by your foes?
Are you somewhere sick and needing me
But unable to cry so I can hear?
Or did you die all alone
Without me to love you and hold you dear.
I loved you for almost ten years
We learned to trust each other.
You were feral and I was scared
But we learned from one another.
How can you leave without saying good-bye?
Or is that what you were trying to say
When I petted loved and held you
And you loved me back the other day.
Were you saying good-bye to me?
Did you know your end was near?
I'm so sorry I didn't understand
I wish so much that you were here.
I would hold you and love you
And rub your belly until you purred.
I would feed you tuna fish
And love you with my every word.
I would say good-bye and hold you close
If that's the way it had to be.
I would tell you what a great cat you are
And ask you to please wait for me.
For someday in the afterlife
We'll be together again I believe.
I know it can't just end this way
One day you're here the next you leave.
There's got to be more meaning
More to life than meets the eye
A grander scheme that compensates
For the incredible sadness of saying good-bye.