Barkley McKay,
You came into my life in 1994 and left my life on May 8th 2007. Thirteen years was not enough time with you, but Mommy tried to do what was best for you and not me!! You were the most loving, gentle, sweetest, kindest, most caring soul in the entire world. I remember the first time I saw you when you were only 6 weeks old and every minute in between till you took your last breath in my arms, the worst night of my life. Please do not hate mommy. Mommy was trying to do what was best for you, and not me. I did not want you to suffer anymore. However, I will suffer forever without you. You were the love of my life. You were my life. I done everything I done to give you the best life ever, and now that you are in heaven my life is stopped. I do not want to go on without you Barkley. I hate myself for what I done to you even though it was for you. I still killed you and I will never forgive myself for doing that to you. I know you are with the angels now. And someday mommy will be with you and we will never ever be apart again.
Your daddy misses you, too. And your brother Pooh Bear misses you so much. He is grieving as much as mommy is BABY!!!! We all will always and 4ever and ever miss and love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
With Love My Baby, Barkley McKay,
| Angie Mahala |