ON A VERY WARM SUMMER NIGHT IN SAN DIEGO IN 1985
I WAS MOURNING THE DEATH OF MY GRANDMOTHER
AND MY OLDEST BROTHER DREW
UNTIL THIS TIME DEATH HAD NEVER CROSSED MY DOOR.
SO I DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO GRIEVE THE FEELINGS OF LOSS
THAT I WAS CONSUMED BY.
I WAS SO ALONE AND I REMEMBER ASKING GOD IF HE WOULD
SEND ME SOMETHING TO LOVE THEN THE TELEPHONE
RANG AND THE WORST NEWS CAME OVER THE PHONE,
MY ROOM MATE AND DEAR DEAR FRIEND HAD BEEN KILLED
1 MILE FROM MY HOUSE IN AN AUTO VS
MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT,
I WAS DEVASTATED MY HEART FELT LIKE THE WEIGHT OF
THE WORLD WAS ON IT.
THEN I HEARD A SOUND FROM THE BUSHES NEXT TO ME,
I WONDERED WHAT COULD THAT BE THEN FROM OUT
OF THE SHADOWS PEERED A LITTLE PAIR OF SHINY GREEN EYES,
I HAD NO IDEA WHAT THEY WERE CONNECTED TO BUT I FELT
AS IF I WAS DRAWN TO IT WIPING THE TEARS FROM MY EYES
I LOOKED A BIT CLOSER IT WAS VERY SMALL AND I SENCED
VERY FRIGHTENED THEN IT RAN AWAY.
THE NEXT NIGHT I SAT OUT SIDE MAYBE IT WOULD RETURN
WHAT EVER IT WAS 2:00 AM THOSE SHINY GREEN EYES AGAIN
PEERED OUT FROM THE SAFETY OF THE BUSHES,
THIS TIME I COULD SEE WHAT IT WAS.
A VERY SMALL INJURED LITTLE DOG(CHIHUAHUA)WITH A WHAT
LOOKED TO BE A BROKEN LEG.
SHE WAS ALL BUT STARVED TO DEATH HER LITTLE RIBS WERE
PROTRUDING OUT HER SIDE AND SHE TREMBLED WITH
FEAR AS IF THE WORLD HAD BEEN CHASING HER.
I DECIDED THAT IF THIS LITTLE DOG WOULD TRUST ONE MORE HUMAN
THAT I WOULD MAKE THE REST OF HER LIFE A BLESSING FULL
OF LOVE GOOD MEDICAL ATTENTION AND TAGS THAT SHOWED
HER AND THE WORLD THAT SHE HAD A LOVING HOME.
THE QUESTION WAS COULD SHE EVER TRUST ANYONE AGAIN
TIME WAS NOT IN HER FAVOR STARVATION WOULD
SOON TAKE HER LIFE IF SHE DIDN’T TRUST ME..
SO NIGHT AFTER NIGHT I SAT OUT SIDE WITH FOOD AND
WATER A LITTLE DISTANCE FROM WHERE I SAT.
ONE NIGHT A VERY HOT SUMMER NIGHT SHE DECIDED TO
COME TO THE WATER BOWL SILENTLY I LAID LIFELESS
WHILE SHE DRANK AND ATE JUST INCHES FROM ME.
I ASKED GOD TO HELP ME TO HELP HER,
THAT NIGHT SHE LAID NEXT TO ME AND WE BOTH FELL ASLEEP,
SHE HAS BEEN BY MY SIDE THRU THE MANY YEARS.
MY DEAREST FRIEND NOW IS 17 YEARS OLD AND HAS
CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE SHE IS ON MEDICATIONS 3X DAY.
AND THE QUALITY OF LIFE IS FADING AWAY.
I KNOW THAT SOON I WILL HAVE TO LET GOD HAVE BACK
HIS LITTLE DOG.
BUT IT BREAKS MY HEART THINKING ABOUT SAYING GOOD-BYE
WE HAVE HAD 15 OF THE MOST PRECIOUS YEARS TOGETHER
AND I CHERISH EACH AND EVERY DAY.
SHE IS BLESSED WITH KNOWING OUR TIME IS SO LIMITED
I HAVE NEVER HAD A DOG BEFORE AND I HAVE LEARNED
SO MANY LESSON ABOUT LIFE FROM PUPPIE
SHE IS MY ANGEL FROM GOD SENT TO ME WHEN I DIDN’T THINK
I WANTED TO TAKE ANOTHER BREATH ONE MORE DAY,,
BECAUSE SHE NEEDED ME TO FEED AND LOVE HER I DECIDED
TO STICK IT OUT ALL THESE YEARS AND I AM SO THANKFUL I DID,,
TO MY DEAREST FRIEND I KNOW OUR TIME IS DRAWING
NEAR AND DEATH DRAWS CLOSER EACH DAY TO OUR DOOR
BUT REMEMBER THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND
I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU AND
YOUR LOVELY SPIRIT,,,
Audrey