The night they called and said that there was no treatment for your cancer and that I could bring you home until I was “ready”, I knew I would never let you leave that hospital. Although you had never spent a night in ICU and away from me, I knew I could not let you be in pain. Im so grateful to them for just letting me stay and hold you until the time came to let you go, your breathing was so painful and yet you still found a way to kiss me again and again, you knew it was goodbye. Im so sorry, that there was nothing that could be done, that there were no signs until it was too late, that you were hurting. But you never showed it, still happy and playful until the end, still loving and worried about me, I love you Z, I cant believe it has been six months, I think about you every day and wish I could have one more day to hug you and talk to you and play hide and seek or catch….Until we meet again…
With all my heart
| Beth |