I know that our parting came on very suddenly for us, and we just weren’t prepared. Only one half hour isn’t nearly enough time to face saying our good-byes after a 14 year life time together being buddies.
I hope you could understand my expression of love for you on the way to the vet’s. Once we got there she told me that she would have to sedate you, I thought that I’d have all the time that you were “relaxing” to share reflections with you. Little did I know that when she brought you back to me, you would be so “relaxed” you’d practically be unconscious,
but I hope you could still hear me anyway.
Then, when she started injecting you, and she told me that you’d be gone in 5 seconds, I wanted to scream out, “wait….that’s way too fast…..I’m not prepared for that!!!” but before I had a chance to think or speak or even take a breath, she had already listened to your heart and told me you were gone. “….but there was so much left that I still wanted to tell you about how much you meant to me. Your bubbly personality quickly captured the heart of everyone who entered our home. You made this earth a far better place than it had been before you entered it and you “made a difference” to all those who encountered you. Most importantly, you enriched Gramp’s golden years immeasurably. You know how much he enjoyed feeding you carrots out of his hand every evening.
You were the light of my day and the joy of my life….the last thing I saw and felt as I drifted off to sleep, and the very first thing I saw and felt as I awoke to your big round brown eyes, greeting in the new day with me.
I sometimes rushed my dinner,
cause I couldn’t wait to see your tail wagging when I handed my plate
over for you to lick. You always amused me and Gramps so with your speed, but then everything you approached was always wholeheartedly.
I can still feel your presence here
cause your pillow is still
under my computer table and
always will be.
Your sister Shansi is very restless at night now – always meandering around the rooms in search of you. I know she loves and misses you as much as I do. You enriched her life so!! and she treasured “showing you the ropes.”
I’m so glad I took so many pictures of you these past 14 years. If only I had gotten a camcorder!! All the things that you did that were so uniquely Mikko just can’t be captured in still photos, but thank God they are embedded in my mind’s running images of you. It’s so comforting to know I can replay “Mikko” movies whenever I want and continue enjoying you, but I just can’t tell you how much I miss sweeping you up off the floor for our day of hugs and kisses.
Your loving Mommy
Love,
Karen
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