My little Koa,
It has been 6 months now since I had the chance to hold you and it seems like an eternity. Keola and Kanoa keep growing and are more and more fun each day. You would have loved them so and they would have loved you. It makes me so sad that they will not know you. I show them your photo every morning and they wave to you or say “dog”. Soon they will say “Koa” but not yet. I miss you terribly and a day has not gone by that I have cried. Sometimes my eyes hurt from the tears I cry. I know you would want me to be happy but it is so hard when I think about you and how you died and how young you were. It is just not fair and it makes me lose faith in good things sometimes. Then I look at Kanoa and Keola and know they are here because you were here. You made me happy and they grew inside of me because of it. Please watch over them and keep them safe. I will always feel this way about you and just don’t know when my pain will stop. I love this photo of you because it is silly and it makes me smile.
Rest well, my sweet Koa, till we meet again.
I love you today, tomorrow and always,
khani Adams-Young |