July 1, 2005-April 27,2007
I sit alone thinking about you once again on this first anniversary of your leaving this Earth. All of the birthdays and Holidays of the past year have come and gone with you on my mind on them all. Now that we have come back to the day you died last year I wonder if I can let go of some of this pain I am feeling. Your birthday has past as has mine and Keola and Kanoa’s too. It is sad that you weren’t here for their first birthday. Christmas is over and the New Year has already begun. Easter is behind us and now the full year is done. I think about you every day and wish it just wasn’t true…that I will never hold you again or hear your happy bark. This is a poem that I read which holds the words I feel for you:
I Only Wanted YOU
They say memories are golden
Well maybe that is true
I never wanted Memories
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you
You never would have died.
In Life I loved you dearly
In Death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place
No one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
And heartache make a lane
I’d walk the path to Heaven
And bring you home again.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing feels the same
But as God calls us one by one
The chain will link again.
I will love you today, tomorrow and forever dear KOA,
| Khani Adms-Young |