Taylor,
It has been too long without you. I can not believe that it has been almost 1 1/2 yrs without. I miss you. The hurt continues, I still can not say your name. This hurt will never end. I miss everything about you. I miss the way you used to paw at me to get me to rub your chest. How you begged for food. How you use to steal tastes of my food. I miss how you curled up against my chest at night to sleep. How you use to stand on my chest to get me up in the mornings and how I used to pretend to still be sleeping but you knew better.
You knew more than anyone knew. You were so intune to how I felt; whether I was sad or upset or nerous you knew. You also knew when you couldn’t go on anymore. You told me loud and clear. I could not go against your wishes but oh how it hurt. I was not ready. I would never have been ready to lose you my love, my angel.
I am so sorry that no one could help you get over your disease. I am so sorry that I moved to this studid state..you never would have gotten it if we didn’t live here. I’m so sorry for everything.
Love you always,
| Pam |