My Broken Heart
Feb 28,2006
To My Precious Chachie,
Your love was given so selflessly and pure. You brought such joy and comfort into my life. The sweet little soul that came into our world on April 8, 1996. Little did I know your time with us would be so fleeting. Today would have been your tenth birthday My Love, but you did not quite make it. I am sure it was as painful for you to leave us as it was for us to let you go, but it was your time and nothing could be done to change that. I thank you for staying and waiting for me to get home from work so we could say goodbye. I thank you for the honor of holding you as you passed on into the next world. Now I know that Heaven is truly a wonderful place, because you are there. My heart aches as it has never ached before. I just miss you so much.
I bought you that new toy last Tuesday night and you were soooooooo happy and excited with it. When we went to bed you brought it with you and you were playing like a puppy. I was getting a little annoyed because you were jamming it into me while I was doing something stupid like playing solitaire on my computer, I wasn’t mad but it was starting to drive me a little crazy. Oh if I had only known that would be my last chance to play with you My Baby I would have stopped whatever it was I was doing and played and played all night with you if that was your desire. I know though that you forgive me, as in your beautiful eyes I could
never do any wrong.
The house feels so empty now. I so miss having you greet me whenever I come home. I miss having to drop everything I might be carrying so I could pick you up and get my love. I miss the sound of your toenails clicking as you walked across the floor. I miss your gentle snoring at night, the sound that became so soothing to me. I miss your warmth, both physical and spiritual. I miss your fur on my clothes. I miss you barking at me while I eat, trying to convince me to give you a piece, with pleading eyes. I miss how you would decide you wanted to get under the covers with me and nudge me awake to lift them, then always taking a moment to stretch first before you went under. I miss the way you used to hit your wet food bowl with your paw and bark at it as if it was going to listen to you and fill itself up. I miss you running to the door anytime you sensed we were going out on the balcony. I miss taking you for a walk and feeling so proud of my beautiful little girl. I miss how when I would bring something home for you and tell you “Mommy has ‘something’ for YOOOOOOU!!!” you would get so excited and come running to see what it was. I miss how you would bring little rocks and hold them in your front teeth for us to try to get away from you, till we had to go get some “turkey” before you would drop them. There are so many things that you did that I miss………I could go on and on and on…………I just miss every little thing about you My Sweet Little Love.
My faithful little companion, the one who was always by my side protecting and loving me, the one who stayed with me when I was sick, the one who I would choose to have with me forever, you are gone now and I must find a way to make it without you. The pain is like nothing I have ever felt before, I cry, but I know that all the tears in the world will not bring you back, so my tears will just have to be in honor of you. Oh how I miss you my Sweet Precious Girl. You have given me so much more than I could have ever asked for.
Happy Birthday My Baby. I will never forget you, I will forever miss you and you will always live on in my heart. You were THE BEST. Someday when God decides it is time, I will reunite with you at the bridge. I so look forward to that beautiful day. Until then………..
All My Love Forever and Ever-
Mommy
In Loving Memory of Miss Chacha Watkins,
| Chachie |
| 23, Feb 2006 |
| Deborah and Matt Watkins |