I lost my soul mate best friend and companion on May 14th 2002. My love Chukker came into the world on December 24 1991. He was the biggest puppy the first born. He had a curly coat. A golden retriever is supposed to be wavy not curly. He was unique from the beginning. My ex-husband wanted to keep him. We named him Tara’s First Chukker (his registered name) We had 11 puppies in that litter and we kept Chukker and his sister Scarlett. We then had a family of four but instead of growing close to my husband Chukker and I developed a close bond only death could break. He ended up being my protector and counselor.
When my ex-husband and I were going through a divorce he came over to push me around. He was quite tall 6’4″ and Chukker jumped up and bit him in the forehead to protect me. He licked my tears when my father was terminally ill as if to say “Don’t worry I will take care of you”.
When I would play my stereo and dance when we lived alone he would rise up on his hind legs wrap the front ones around my waist and dance with me! We could communicate without speaking. He would hug me and I could feel our souls touching. He would put his paw up to shake (I never taught him that!) he just knew how to do it. He used to love chasing frogs and licking the poisonous ones. I must have taken him to the vet 3 or 4 times because of that. He just couldn’t leave them alone.
The day he woke up and couldn’t breathe I panicked. I offered him some water and food. He refused them both. I rushed him to the vet they did chest x-rays blood work which were all normal. 15 minutes later He howled twice stiffened a couple of times and passed away. The vet did a necropsy and found a cancerous tumor had caused the membrane around the heart to fill with blood and put great pressure on his heart. It couldn’t function normally and he passed.
I have never felt such grief in my life. My baby boy has gone on to the rainbow bridge to wait for me. Chukkie I hope you are waiting in that meadow for me running in the sun feeling the wind in your face (like in the car) and chasing froggies. Please don’t forget mommie because I will never forget you.. Your mom Sasha Dad D’artagnan and sister Scarlett miss you..Even Maya misses you because she lost her pillow!!
Be well my friend my love and my companion..You are my true soul mate and guardian..Please be there to greet me..I miss you more than words can express.I will love you forever my sweet little boy.
Until we meet again
then we will never have
to say goodbye.
Mommy Tara
| Chukker |
| 14, May 2002 |
| Tara |