On Tuesday July 29 2002 my mom took Gabriel to the vet for me for what I thought was just a bad cold. Well not an hour later he was gone. He started vomiting blood and went into cardiac arrest. He had hypertrophic cardiomyopathy and kept it hidden from me for so very long. What makes this harder and different from Bailey dying is that Gabriel had just turned a year. His life hadn’t even started.
If I could see him one more time I would apologize for yelling at him and telling him “no” to so many things. I would spoil him more than I did already. I’ll never forget when he got out…Peter and I searched and searched and cried and cried. Then because a mommy knows her baby’s cry I heard him and “rescued” him!! Of course then we had to take the 100 signs we put up on every telephone pole on our street!! Oh how you tormented Jade…I really think she grew to dislike you!! But you just annoyed her because she wanted to be queen of the household!!
I hope you know that everyone loved you. And thought you were the most beautiful cat!! We will never forget the day I brought you home and had you in a brown paper bag as a surprise! (and it worked!)
I feel so badly and my heart aches for the last few minutes of your life. The suffering the violence of it. And how you fought the vet trying to help you breathe. I guess you wanted to go to breath the fresh air of the Rainbow Bridge to play with the other kitties and to finally meet Bailey! I hope you are playing. I know he will love you he just adored cats. So the both of you can wait for me. So just play until your little heart is content and I’ll be there before you know it. I hope you were not in any pain baby. You did look peaceful when I came to see you. Still beautiful completely white..you looked like you were sleeping.
I hope you are at rest Gabriel. And if your heart is no longer in any pain that itself is worth the pain I have in my heart….. I miss you you little pain in the butt!! And I will always always love you. Maybe you were waiting for me to get another cat. You played with Merlin for a week before you couldn’t hide being sick anymore. And I thank you for being so selfless. I hope you were happy with me as your mom…I love you
Your mommy
I'll see you soon
| Gabriel |
| 19, July 2002 |
| Eileen Holroyd & Peter Ferreira |