" Garfield "
Winter of 1986 - 87 ----------- April 16 1999
Cat
I didn't know losing you
Could make me have so much pain.
I am depressed and blue
with a hurt too deep to explain
Whenever I needed someone
You were always there
Now when I look for my "sun"
There is only air
Then I start to cry
As my mind fills with your memory
Why'd you have to die
and leave me?
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No matter how much I hurt inside
The world won't stop for me.
My pain won't ever subside
If I must live with this memory.
I've even tried to pretend
that he has never been there,
that he was never my best friend,
that I don't really care.
But I can't deny this hurt in my heart,
the true heartache the real pain.
This realization tears me apart
as my sorrowful tears fall like rain.
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Those poems are dedicated to my best friend in
the whole world. I got that cat Garfield when I was only 2 1/2.
We grew up together really. I can't even remember a time
when he wasn't there wasn't a part of me.
Now I have to go the rest of my life without him.
In the 12 years I had him he would always listen to me.
I'd even sing to him and read him my horrible poetry.
But he didn't care. He'd just listen intently until I was finished.
He died on a Friday. I guess I knew it was coming.
He went into the vet to have a mass of liver cancer removed,
and well it was just all through him.
My mom actually called me at school. When I got
the call I literally couldn't breathe. I finally took a couple very
shaky breaths before collapsing in tears.
My poor 9th period class had no clue what was going on.
Any ways it's been almost 2 months and it still hurts
and perhaps it always will a little.
I actually still look for him when I go outside and
my dog Daisy still goes over to his dish to see
if he finished his cat food or not...
Ashley
| Garfield |
| Ashley |