On October 23 1998 I had to do something that I didn’t want to do.
My pek “Gizmo” had gotten so old and he had become blind over the past 4 months.
He was 16 years old and had been with me through some hard times in my life.
But I took him to the vet and they told me that he had arthritis really bad in
his back and hip. I had moved from another state and the trip had been
really hard on him. He was used to going places but this one trip I knew
he was getting too old to ride in a car for long periods of time.
I had left a marriage and I knew whatever the costs I was taking my
dog who had seen me through the hard times in that marriage. The ex
hated the dog but I loved him with all of my heart. So many memories
rushed to me as I sat in the vets office that terrible day. My ex
couldn’t wait for the day he died. And I knew that Gizmo was in bad
shape. He wasn’t himself anymore. I had to take him outside and put
him on the grass so he could use the bathroom and then bring him in
since he couldn’t see. Having to watch him go through all of that hurt
me because I know I wouldn’t want to be like that. I had my family
members telling me not to do it but I was doing it for Gizmo. There is
a nice poem in these webpages about when a pet gets old. I saved it and
I read it it helps me get through the rough days.
But Gizmo was never taught all those cute tricks what ever he learned
he learned on his own. He would know when I was sad and he would lick my
tears away. He could tell me when he needed something and he loved to play.
Only after the move the playing stopped. He just wanted to sleep.
The week that I called the vet it is like Gizmo knew. He had
managed to get used to the room I was in and instead of finding his bed
he started sleeping beside me on the floor. I had tried putting him on
the bed with me but he had fallen off a few times and I didn’t want to
hurt him. But he knew how pets know what is going on just amazes me.
But he stayed close by me and I felt like he was letting me know that he
was tired and that it was okay. The only person really having a hard
time with it was me I wasn’t ready to let him go. But he was so
tired. And I stayed with him the whole time too. I didn’t think I
could but I did. He was very special to me and will always be.
I Love You Gizmo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pamela Collins
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