Learning to smile all over again… learning how to walk in the door without you jumping on my shoulders. Learning how to wake up all alone and learning how to sit next to the Christmas Tree without having to fight with you over the presents. Learning how to rearrange my life after 17 years of heaven and accepting I must do all of these things without you seems to be the most difficult task I have ever had to perform.
This was my first Christmas without you and it felt soooo lonely and non-important. The only way I could get you close to me was to draw your cute little face and those big brown eyes. It felt as though I was looking at you everyday as it still does. This picture I have drawn of you stares me to sleep and wakes with me every morning. It seems to be the only way to end the loneliness.
You will forever be the spark in my heart and the light in my eyes. I will always think of you everyday and love you more every year. I can find peace in knowing you are up there to keep my daughter company and when it’s my time to join you both I have nothing to fear.
Forever …. Your Mom (Jennifer)
| Goldie |
| 16, May 2001 |
| Jennifer |