Dearest Apache,
Happy 2nd Birthday in heaven baby! You would be 10 years old! Excuse me… I mean you are! What a big boy! Mama misses u oh so much… more than you’ll ever know. It’s been real ruff lately and I sure wish I had you here but I know you’re with me and I know your helping Kody so he can try and fill in for ya but I just wish I had you. I don’t know what to do these days, I’m in a real jam as I’m sure you can see… just keep sending me those signs, so I know you’re here. Like the other night I heard “here without you”, your song.. as you know I’ve got a new boyfriend and he thinks the world of you, even though he never met you in person. I know you approve, I can tell by your signs, just know he’s trying to take care of your mama and he misses you too… so how’s things been up there? Hope you’re being treated well…. also as you know… Uncle Greg and Aunt Maril’s puppy Tahnaya passed away recently… so she joined you, Poco, Rosie and the rest up at the gates. Please take good care of her and make sure she finds Poco and Rosie, NayNay is just a baby and she’s gonna need you to show her the ropes. Well baby…
I miss you and will be thinking of you today and again on thursday, the 15th…I’m not gonna write to you though, cause I’m sure they’ll kick me off, as I’ve written alot about you on here the past 2 years, but it’s the only thing that helps me and makes me feel connected to you. I’m gonna let balloons go for you, as I always do, tomorrow night at the docks, and again on the 15th…
I’m also going back to Dad’s to fix up your spot some more, did you see how I cleared all the leaves? well I got a little fence and some pebbles I’m gonna put there, cause I want you to feel special and know I haven’t forgotten about you. I might even get some shells from your spot near the water you liked so much and put them at your grave. Either way, you see it all, I know you do. I love you Apache and please keep watching over me… Happy Birthday My Boy!
Till We Meet Again....
| Happy 2nd Birthday In Heaven |
| 15, July 2003 |
| Jackie McKenna |