Honey by Yvonne / Mommy

In Loving Memory of my Honey girl

FRIEND TO FRIEND

You’re giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.

But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.

So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic that will
Once more make me whole.

The strength that you possess
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it’s the only way.

That strength is why I’ve followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I’ve loved you all these years…
My partner ’til the end.

Please, understand just what this gift
You’re giving means to me.
It gives me back the strength I’ve lost,
And all my dignity.

You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.

So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel
The courage that’s within you
To now grant me this appeal.

Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady piggy,
My pain and struggle done.

And don’t despair my passing,
For I won’t be far away,
Forever here within your heart
And memory I’ll stay.

I’ll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I’ll run,
…a young piggy once again.
(Author unknown)

Honeli, mommy loves you so very very much. Letting you go was the hardest decision ever … it broke my heart and part of it went with you as your soul left your sick body. I’ll always miss you, your unique scent, your beautiful fur, your soulful eyes. You are much wiser than me Honeli, and so full of love. I can feel your peace now, you are finally free from your sick body, running around with April, squeaking and eating to your heart’s content. If you see mommy crying and feeling so very lost, please do not worry. I will be alright. I have 7 years of happy memories of us together. Filled with love and joy. I will forever hold on to them. Forever. I just want you to know that I would have done ANYTHING to make you feel better, to heal your body, to keep you here with me … but to my disbelief and heartbreak, the only help I could give you was to let you go … I know you were ready, you let me know that you were. You were so very tired. Tired of your old and sick body. Tired to fight. I know that now that you have accomplished your duties here on earth, you are needed for far bigger things up in Heaven … the angels must have needed one very special piggy, for Honey, you were an angel here on earth. And now that you gained your wings … go run free and shower down all of your love on me, ’cause I really do miss you so much *cries*

Until we meet again …. I’ll close my eyes and think of you happy and squeaky, eating all day and sleeping under a soft cloud …. someday mommy will join you Honeli …. those last kisses were not goodbye … only “see you later, all is good” … Love you so much Honeli. Mommy just wants you to know that. I’ll forever keep our last chat in my heart. I reminded you of the promise I made to you, 7 years ago when you were six weeks old. I promised I’ll always love you and take BEST care of you. Always. And I had to keep my promise, even though it meant to let you go. I so wished there could have been another way to keep it, Honeli. I so prayed. And you fought so hard, I know you stayed just one more day to make mommy happy. Those last days will stay in my heart forever. The tears, the smiles. The kisses, oh the kisses … You fell asleep so naturally, so full of peace and wisdom, as if you were drawn to that beautiful place. You knew no fear, no sadness. As I told you when you went to sleep, “Mommy is here Honeli, all is good. All is good.” And I kissed you one last time, and memorized your good scent. Forever in my heart Honeli. Wait for mommy … mommy’ll always be there.

 

Love you forever my sweet girl
Honey
24, June 2010
Yvonne