In memory of my one and only, my angel Luna:
MAY I GO?
May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say good-bye to pain-filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I’ve lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn’t want to go at first,
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It’s difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you’re sad and afraid,
because I see your tears.
Ill not be far I promise that,
and hope you’ll always know
that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you, too.
That’s why it’s hard to say good-bye
and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you’ll let me go today.
Yes my baby, I let you go, feel free and go, follow the light and take all my love with you!! I can’t put into words how much I miss you, the pain of not having you here with me is unbearable, my heart is broken and only YOU can melt it…
I’m sorry if you stayed one more day because of me, I’m sorry if you were in pain, if you felt any fears, if you felt caught in your sick and old body… the last thing I wanted is you to suffer, and you showed me with all your last will that your time had come to go. All day you looked at me with deep eyes, with a look I’ve never know before, as if you were asking me to help you…I would have done anything to help you, we tried everything in our power… Please understand your mommy, just the thought of taking one breath without you in it killed me inside…and still does… I don’t know what to do Luna, how can I make the pain go away? My head and my eyes are aching so from crying my soul out, every thought is of you, how can I go on like this? You were such a special gitl, I want the whole world to know that! Please know the only, only reason I helped you go to Rainbow Bridge was because I love you more than life itself…I couldn’t bear to see you so… it was the hardest thing I ever had to do… you fell asleep so quickly and peacefully, you once more showed us what a brave and big girl you were. We’ll always remember you, my “Cippi”, I can’t wait to join you…I can’t wait….
…until then, please watch down on me and your daughter Stella…keep her in track ok?
Now go run and swim and eat to your heart’s content…no more diet sweetie…be happy and know your family loves you more you can imagine! Thank you for growing me up and for teaching me what love and understanding really means, even knowing the pain I would do it all over again… You were my gift, always in my heart…
“Give me a smile Cippi”….hugs hugs hugs and many many kisses ti vogliamo tanto bene cippi baci baci “vengo dopo ok”…. ciao amore
At the end of Rainbow Bridge
When I woke up this morning I felt very odd
I don’t know why, but I felt close to God
The sun was shining, the birds were singing
The music was soft, the bells were ringing
And puppies were romping and at play
What a pleasant start of a wonderful day
I remember laying down to take a nap
I remember I had my head in her lap
I remember the sad look in her eye
I remember I had never seen he cry
I remember I wanted to ask her why
I remember hearing her say, good-bye
I wanted to say don’t cry for me
I wanted to say, just remember me
I wanted to say I remember the toys
I wanted to say I remember the joys
I wanted to say, I love you so much
I wanted to say, how I loved your touch
Oh please let me hug you
Oh please let me kiss you
Oh please let me tell you
What an angel you’ve been
Oh please let me thank you
for showing me Him
I knew when I woke up
There would be no pain
I knew if I wanted to
I could play in the rain
I knew that I would remember
the love you gave me forever
You’ve taken care of me
All my life you’ve guarded me from trouble and strife
You’ve taken care of me trhu good and bad
You’ve always stopped me from feeling sad
You’ve given me treats and given me care
You’ve told me what to expect when I got there
So please don’t cry, wipe the tears from your eye
I’ll look down upon you with a woof and a sigh
I’ll gather my courage and and march up to God and ask Him
When you get there to give you a nod
for you were my master and you were my friend
and I’ll be waiting for your at the Rainbow’s end.
~Author Unknown~