TO MY BELOVED PRECIOUS,
I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AT FIRST SIGHT. I JUST KEPT SAYING “AREN’T YOU SO PRECIOUS” BECAUSE YOU WERE THE CUTEST PUPPY I HAD EVER SEEN. AFTER SAYING IT SEVERAL TIMES, IT DAWNED ON ME THAT THIS SHOULD BE YOUR NAME. IT WAS WINTER TIME AND YOU WERE SO LITTLE AND WHENEVER I WAS AT MY COMPUTER, YOU WANTED TO BE HELD, SO I WOULD TUCK YOU UP UNDER MY SHIRT AND YOU WOULD GO TO SLEEP.YOU CONTINUED TO WANT TO DO IT AND I LET YOU EVEN THOUGH AS YOU GOT BIGGER, YOU WOULD STRETCH MY SHIRT OUT.
I LOVED THAT YOU STILL WANTED TO DO IT. YOU LOVED ME MORE THAN ANY PET I HAVE EVER HAD AND I LOVED YOU AS MUCH. I LOVED HOW YOU KISSED MY FACE CONTINUOUSLY UNTIL I PULLED YOU OFF AND LAUGHINGLY SAID, “THAT’S ENOUGH KISSES!” YOU WERE MY LAP DOG, MY SHADOW, THE JOY OF MY LIFE. LIFE WAS WONDERFUL UNTIL THE DAY YOU CRIED OUT IN PAIN WHEN BEING PICKED UP.THE VET SAID YOU HAD A SLIPPED DISC AND DOGS LIKE YOU WERE PRONE TO THEM. YOU DID BETTER FOR A WHILE, THEN YOUR BACK LEGS BECAME PARALYZED. I RUSHED YOU TO ANOTHER VET IN TEARS AND YOUR PROGNOSIS WASN’T GOOD. IT WAS THE FOURTH OF JULY WEEKEND AND I CRIED ALL THE WAY THROUGH IT. YOU RECOVERED ENOUGH SO THERE WAS HOPE THROUGH SURGERY.
THE SURGERY WAS VERY EXPENSIVE AND I DIDN’T HAVE THE MONEY, BUT I SWALLOWED MY PRIDE AND ASKED FOR HELP AND TWO LOVING FRIENDS HELPED US OUT. YOU HAD THE SURGERY AND THE WORST PART WAS KEEPING YOU STRICTLY CONFINED FOR TWO MONTHS AFTERWARDS.IT KILLED BOTH OF US,I WAS FORBIDDEN FROM EVEN HOLDING YOU ON MY LAP.
IT WAS ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I HAVE EVER GONE THROUGH. YOU FINALLY REGAINED YOUR FREEDOM AND ALL WAS WELL FOR A MONTH AND THEN YOU AGAIN CRIED OUT IN PAIN AND YOUR BACK LEGS WERE PARALYZED AGAIN. I WAS DEVASTATED BECAUSE I KNEW WHAT I WOULD HAVE TO DO. I COULD NOT AFFORD ANY FURTHER TREATMENT. TAKING YOU TO BE EUTHANIZED WAS AGONIZING. I ONLY WISH I WAS A RICH PERSON SO I COULD HAVE FOUND THE BEST SURGEON IN THE WORLD TO FIX YOUR LITTLE BACK. I WOULD HAVE GIVEN YOU THE MOON IF I COULD HAVE MY PRECIOUS GIRL! YOU WERE SUCH A HAPPY JOYFUL DOG, FULL OF MISCHIEF TOO AT TIMES. I TOLD YOU MANY TIMES THAT YOU WERE SO BAD THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO WOULD HAVE KEPT YOU. I COULD NEVER GET MAD AT YOU, I LOVED YOU UNCONDITIONALLY AND YOU LOVED ME THAT WAY TOO.
I WANT YOU TO BE THE FIRST ONE TO MY SIDE WHEN I JOIN YOU IN HEAVEN AND I WANT A THOUSAND KISSES. YOU MADE ME SO HAPPY MY BABY GIRL AND I WILL MISS YOU UNTIL THE DAY I DIE. I PRAY THAT YOU CAN FIND YOUR WAY BACK TO ME, BUT I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY AND RUNNING AND PLAYING IN HEAVEN. YOU WERE A TOTAL JOY. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
LOVE ALWAYS,
| Precious |
| 13, Nov 2005 |
| Diana Deaton |