Reggie, my darling, my precious, my baby.
I will never forget you, I promise you that. I’m taking your passing so hard, please help me have the strength to get through this. I know that you are watching over me. You are my angel, keeping me out of harms way, and waiting for me to join you at the other end of the bridge. You are looking down upon me from Heaven and I don’t want you to think for a second that I don’t know that.
It was your turn to be with God, and to join your friend Charlie up in Heaven. God only let us borrow you, it was our time to give you back to God. I am eternally grateful that God gave me the opportunity to know you, Rabbit Face.
Reggie, I will never forget the day you were euthanized. It left me with such an empty feeling in the pit of my soul. How you refused to enter that cat carrier, how you meowed out of fright as you were sitting on my lap in the car even though I was stroking you and trying to comfort you, it just wasn’t good enough. It was almost as if you knew and you didn’t want to reach the vet’s office, and that’s what hurts me the most. I won’t ever forget the feeling of your heart pounding and pounding while I was holding you, knowing that that very heart was going to stop pounding later that day. I cry at the very thought of it.
Everytime I hear the song ‘Lightning Crashes’ by Live, I think of you and your little soul entering Heaven. It never seizes to make me cry everytime I listen to it. I’ve been trying to upload it to your catster page since you died, but I can’t. I’m going to keep trying though because it reminds me of you so much, and makes me reflect on our memories. 🙁
Remember when I was a newborn, and you used to sleep in my stroller and follow everywhere the baby went? I have many, many pictures of you sleeping next to me when I was just a little baby, and watching me, just watching me, in awe of this little human. This little baby girl.
Remember when I was, maybe four, and I used to chase you around the house, trying to fit the collar that I made of paper over your head? You were such a great sport, you just wore that thing around, even though you looked like a circus cat.
Remember when you and I used to play blanket wars? Remember how whenever you walked, you raised your tail way up in the air, and Mum and I used to call you ‘The Walking Stick’?
I felt such a closeness to you because you experienced everything that I did. You were there since the day I was born, and my first day without you was absolutely horrible. I cried a lot. I still do. I’m crying right now.
Reggie, I know that this devotion really makes no sense, but I just want you to know that I think of you everyday and cry at least once. I miss you so much and know
that I will see you again.
I’m keeping your bed clean, no worries there little pal.