I’ll never forget the day you were born. I never expected to keep you. I didn’t want another dog. I wanted to raise puppies and sell them. Big mistake. Your brothers and sisters were our first and last litter. Then you got sick and I had to care for you. I held you and bottle fed you as we rocked. I knew you were mine forever. Well forever never came. I had to let you go 13 short years later. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. I knew I couldn’t let you suffer as I had let your mother. I couldn’t be selfish a second time.
I remember digging your grave and buying your blanket to bury you in. I remember holding you as you went to a peaceful permanent sleep. I also remember carrying you to the island where you were to buried. I wouldn’t let anyone take you from me.
I remember placing you in your permanent home and just kneeling and looking at you. I never wanted to let you go. My heart still aches. You were as precious to me as my human son. I said to goodbye to him and I knew I had to say goodbye to you. I covered you with your fuzzy blanket and your blanket of earth. I will never get over the pain of losing you. My heart is broken.
You are in my heart along with your mother and you human brother Jamie. I know you three are together and waiting for me to join you. I look forward to that day. I miss you and your mother and Jamie. My heart is broken and will never heal.
I love you.
Mommy