No amount of words will be enough to describe the grief that I am undergoing now… My Beloved Snowie or Snow as he is fondly called has left me forever. He succumbed to a seizure yesterday morning and was not able to make it through.
The day I feared has come and there is no turning back… it is over, he is gone.
Snow at approximately 11 years old was a survivor, but in his last ordeal, he was not able to triumph it. Guess his time is due and no amount of effort to defer the inevitable is plausible.
He was not a sickly dog, but due to his old age, he had at least three sicknesses in these last few years, the two he was able to hurdle successfully, but the third was the fatal one. Few years back, he miraculously recovered from a pest disease that according to the vet, surviving it was a miracle. The second was first week of November last year. He weakened and lost appetite. The vet said due to his old age, his kidney has worn-out, he went medication and I patiently took care of him till he recovered in this last seven months, till last Saturday last week, 24 July 2010, he had a seizure. Fortunately, I was with him and helped him get through it… after the seizure miraculously he stood up as if nothing happened, although he was a bit weak to carry his weight at almost 20 kilos. In that instant of his seizure, the first I had witnessed in my whole life, as I was not even aware animals do have seizure too, I could not do much but to be with him, and prayed hard to ease his pains. I literally called almost all the Saints in Heaven to help him. I love him so much and never want to lose him.
Six days were given to me, to be with him. I never knew, or maybe no one would ever know. Yesterday morning, he had another seizure, and that was it, he was parted to me forever.
My kind and loving Snow has left me, we may be physically apart this very moment, but I know no amount of space or distance can hinder our love for each other. Ever where I look, I see his smiling face at me, although I miss hugging him, I always hug him….He is such a warm dog, he was always been my guard and goes with me everywhere I go. I could feel that he still lingers here around me. We buried him in our garden so I could always visit him. It is indeed a family that we lost more than just a pet.
I will never forget you Snow no matter what, you will always hold a very special part in my memory and in my heart. And as I had told you in the last minutes of your life here on earth; thank you for all the years in giving us happiness and love. And for you to remember wherever you are now that I love you very much, we all love you so much. I would look forward the day that we could be together again. You know how special you are to me and it just really broke my heart to see you go. My only consolation at this time is to think that you would no longer be in pain and at least you are in peace now. If ever there is a second life for both of us, I would still want you to be my dear pet, my dear best friend.
Life will never be the same without you Snow that I know for sure…I just love you and miss you terribly not only for now but for always till the last of my breathe.
Good bye Baby Snow, till we meet again.