Oh Sonya,
It’s only been a few hours since you went to sleep and I can’t stop crying. I want you back. The house feels so empty without you and I miss you following my every footstep as I walk from room to room. Part of me keeps expecting you to be right at my heel as you always were, looking up at me, … but of course you’re not here … and I don’t know how I’ll ever get used to that.
I hope with all my heart that you are at peace and not afraid to be away from home, and that Anna is with you. And I hope you know how much your Daddy and I loved you – still love you. It was so hard to put you to sleep, even though we knew it was the right thing to do. You were so strong for so long – much longer than they thought you’d last – but then went downhill so fast, and I couldn’t stand seeing you that way another day.
I’m glad I was there at the end. Being with you as you drifted away in my arms brought me a strange comfort. I knew in my heart it was the right day to do this, and as I watched you so peacefully cooperating with the procedure and gazing up at me with such a loving face, I felt as though you somehow knew it was the right time also.
Goodbye my little lamb. You were such a sweethearted little girl. All you ever wanted in life was to be by my side and I thank you from the very depths of my heart for those 12 years of your utterly complete devotion to me. I’ve never known such love before. You, my “yiddle tone”, will never ever be forgotten.