Theodore RIP March 29th, 2014 8.50 am
I would’ve loved You Anyway
If I’d known the way
that this would end,
If I’d read the last page first
If I’d had the strength
to walk away
If I’d known how this would hurt.
I would’ve loved you anyway.
I’d do it all the same.
Not a second I would change.
Not a touch that I would trade,
Had I known my heart would break,
I’d loved you anyway.
It’s bittersweet to look back now,
At memories withered on the vine,
But just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time.
I would’ve loved you anyway.
I’d do it all the same.
Not a second I would change.
Not a touch that I would trade,
Had I known my heart would break,
I’d loved you anyway.
And even if I’d seen it coming
You’d still’ve seen me running
Straight into your arms
I would’ve loved you anyway
I’d do it all the same.
Not a second I would change.
Not a touch that I would trade,
Had I known my heart would break
I would’ve loved you anyway.
I would’ve loved you anyway.
~Author unknown~
MY little boy, my little Theodore. I wanted to give you a meaningful name – so Theodore seemed right, because you were indeed a Gift of God. Even though we only spent a week together you have touched my heart and soul in a very special, unique way. I will always love you and never forget you. Please forgive me if I had too many hopes, if I so wanted to keep you here, but you deserved a chance. I wish I had you from the start, I wish we met earlier, I wish …. I prayed to God to please heal you, to please make you feel better. Now you are at peace my little boy. No more meds, no more needlesm no more gasping for breath. Mommy loves you so much. I will carry on your love in my heart, and someday, someday I promise I’ll say your name and look at your pictures, with a smile thinking of your cutest personality, instead of the tears that are streamind down my face now 🙁 It just hurts so much, not having you here in your earthly suit. But nothing is more important than you being at peace, my boy. Mommy will take the pain, I would have taken it all on me. Thank you little Theodore for coming into my life. Thank you for allowing me to love you. Thank you for your nose kisses. Thank you for the 7 days we had together. I’d do it all again. The sleepless nights. The endless worry and fear. The love, oh the love. I love you with all of my heart my boy and will hold on to your memory … I hope you know how much you’ve touched my heart and that you felt my love and gentle touch when you left this earth …. I miss you so much. Please watch down on your mommy Faith and on me …. you were an angel, and now you can fly up high…. Sleep tight my baby, be well now.