Author: Janell

Dearest Charlie,

You have only been gone for a short time, and already your presence is sadly missed. You livened things up so much here. Though at first I wasn’t sure about taking you in, I enjoyed every moment we had together. I only wish that you could have stayed here longer. Roswell is sure going to miss his little brother. We will miss all your squirrel chasing antics. Roswell will miss playing tug-o-war with you. I will miss your intensity and courage. I already miss holding you close and looking into those beautiful brown eyes.
You had such a love for life.

We had almost eight months with each other. You brought a lot of joy to my life. I don’t know how you managed to rebound each time. You were such an amazing guy. You held out, despite your high numbers. Your kidneys unfortunately just couldn’t hold up any longer. We tried everything we could, but your final days here let me know that this final battle wasn’t going to be won.

I held you in my arms, crying and speaking softly to you as the injection was given. You went so peacefully. I did not ant you to suffer any longer. I hope you are running free now. You no longer have to be sick anymore. We love and miss you my Little Man.

With Love,

Mom

 

Bowser,

I vividly remember that day you came to me. They brought you over and simply said, “He’s yours!”. I was confused because I knew my parents would never let me have a dog. I questioned my uncle and thought that he meant he was keeping you and I could visit when I went over there. But they insisted that you were mine. I finally understood and I took you into my arms and a wonderful friendship began.

I’ll never be able to explain to anyone how important you were to me. I talked to you when there was nowhere else to turn. With you around, I was never alone. You were a bit of a rascal at times, always getting in the garbage and having something against Jeff. I never did understand why you hated him so much… But I fought to keep you and you always stayed loyal to me. You were my best buddy and even though times were rough, I never lost hope because you were there.

I remember the walks we took at school and all the trips to Stoney. I loved your little hop run that you did when you saw me. Your ears were so sute when they’d flip up and down. You were so attached to me. Every time I’d leave, you cry until I got back. It didn’t make the neighbors too happy, and I’m sorry I left you those times.

I thought you’d always be around. I never expected you to get sick or that I would need to make a decision like the one I made that day. But I couldn’t let you suffer any longer. I had watched you decline for almost a week. Dawn took care of you so well in the hospital. But there was no improvement. I wanted you to get better like you had done the first time this happened. But, you were dizzy and disoriented and I couldn’t bear to hear your mournful cry. You just layed on your side, hardly even knowing that I was there. You were so depressed those last few days. Even when I took you home and held you close, you cried. The neurologist finally helped me see that I could do no more to help you. He said to enjoy our time together. I took you home, fed you treats and cried, knowing the time was coming soon. I held you tight as the injection was given. I told you I loved you. You went peacefully in my arms. I could never have left you alone. You had been so faithful to me all those years.

I miss you so much. I miss holding you. I miss hearing you bark. I miss seeing you waiting for me to come home. I miss cooking for you. You always had so many lumps and bumps, and I even miss touching those :(. There’s such a void without you here. That little wooden box with your ashes is all I have left now and it seems so inadequate.

Bowsie, I think of you all the time. I miss you, my little friend. I would have done anything for you.
I know you’re waiting for me somewhere.
Little pawprints in heaven.
I love you so much.