Bernhard-
It’s been only a few days since you departed. During the past month of your illness, I sensed no pain but some of your depression, even if the vets could not find the cause of your weight loss. Our worst fears were realized when surgery revealed the fatal cancer. The cancer could take away your physical attributes, but cannot take away your soul and our fond memories. I am thinkful to have been with you that day, and only wish we could have had a few more walks, and a few more days to enjoy. But in your weakened physical condition, it would have caused you great pain to try and recover just to survive a few more months.
I pray to God several times a day to tell him how much you meant to me, and to please make a special place for you. Baxter is lonely without you, but we are making more time to be with him during this process. If we should get another German Shepherd puppy, please help Baxter see that life is to be enjoyed, and to live out his years in happiness with his human and canine friends. I always hoped that you would help Baxter live out the years, but you were taken much too early.
I will remember all of the fun times we had, at the lake, the walks, the obedience classes, and be thankful that you were such a loving dog, watching over our kids as they began to grow up.
We will place you in our back yard under one of our shade trees, so that you can look out over the countryside and keep watch.
I don’t want to end this tribute, because you feel nearer when I think of the times we had. You will always be special in our hearts, and will always be our first German Shepherd. At some time, we may get a puppy relative of yours. We know that she will have the same good qualities you have. You are truly a gift from God, and your inspiration has focused me on becoming a better Christian, father and husband, and too focus on what is most important in life.
I pray to keep my heart open, and to see the signs that lead me to a more fulfilling life.
Thank you very much for allowing me to put in words so of my thoughts as we go through the painful process of healing and rememberance.