Here I sit on New Years Eve thinking about you as I have so many times these past eight months. My dear little Koa I don’t even know where to begin telling you how much you are missed and how my heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts each and every day and there are so many things I wish I could do with you. I want to take you to the beach and watch you go crazy chasing the birds and dashing in and out of the water the way you liked to do. There were so many times we didn’t let you go play because we didn’t want you to get dirty. I wish you freedom now my sweet boy. Go chase all the birdies and get as dirty as you want. I would love you no matter what. I just have so many regrets but I also know I did the best I could at that time. So here I sit as the year that we lost you comes to an end wishing you were here again. I don’t know what the New Year holds for us but please watch over Keola and Kanoa. I will try to be more patient with them. I know I sometimes wasn’t as patient with you as I could have been but then sometimes you were such a rascal. Please dear Koa remember me and when it is my time please be there waiting for me. It will be my hope to have you and Kawika greeting me. I will love you always.
My love today, tomorrow, and forever,
| Khani Adams-Young |