March 17 2000 — Still Here
My little baby came into my life a year ago in February.
My parents had suddenly separated on boxing day and I was
in dire need of a confidant a listener and a fluffy shoulder to cry on.
That was the recipe for Duffy a little terri-poo.
We rescued him from the SPCA.
As soon as I saw him I knew he was the one.
He sat in the corner of his cold metal cage dancing in excitement
to see me and for the chance of a better life.
He came home with us the next day.
I couldn’t have asked for a better more devoted or loyal companion.
He was my shadow from the day he left the shelter.
He seemed to know I was the one who begged and pleaded to take
him home and wanted to repay me with all the love he could.
If he was going for a walk he begged for me to go with him
if he was lying down he begged for me to be with him.
If I was sitting he had to be on my lap or touching me
if I was sleeping he was underneath the covers with his furry
little beard touching me. He was forever with me.
In a month I leave for university.
I grieve as I know that he is not leaving this world but that
I am leaving him and a piece of my heart behind with him.
Whenever I wake up in a stuffy dorm room my little muffin
will not be beside me anxiously waiting for me to wake.
He won’t be there to comfort me when I am sad or need someone
to listen. I won’t be able to bend down and scratch his head
or have the feeling of assurance knowing he is there with me
and won’t let anything happen.
I’ll miss our long Sunday morning walks on the bike path
where he’d play fetch for hours.
While I’m studying he won’t be there lying on my feet or begging
for my attention he won’t be there with me at all
except in my heart.
My little moo moo I’m only leaving you for a short time and
please know you have done nothing wrong.
I fear I will return and you will not recognize me and
not show any excitement.
Please remember I am the one who took you shopping
and pampered you.
I am the one who took you for long walks in the park
I am the one who taught you all the tricks you know today,
I was your constant companion and the one you
waited for at the door.
The one you were so thankful and happy to see My boo
please know that I will be back.
I would never leave you for I love you with every
bit of my heart.
Please wait for me!
I love you my little boo!
Love,
Emma
| Duffy |
| Emma |