It’s been over a year since Firestar died. He was killed by the same dog that killed another one of my cats, Negra.
To say that the anger and sadness has lifted somewhat would be an understatement. I think someday it will but I always take my time working through these things.
We got Firestar in January of 2009 while living in Jefferson City, Montana. We got him from a veteran dying of cancer. All this man wanted was for his kitten to have a good home. For much of the time he had a wonderful home.
Firestar was a bright orange cat with the longest tail I’ve ever seen. When we moved to Roundup, Montana, he got in a fight that resulted in his tail being amputated. He still tried to wag the stump – he never once gave up on this. I also remember what a good patient he was. I had to flush the incision site twice a day. Firestar never hissed, spit or struggled. He knew I was trying to help him.
In 2011 I met a really nice man who invited me and my kids to move to Kansas. Like a fool I said yes. We did take all the cats, but when we got here Firestar took off. We found him on the same day that Negra died. He was so thin but I was sure I had him on the road to recovery. I had three wonderful weeks with him that I would never trade for nearly anything. We snugged and he would purr and give me kisses. Then came August 8 and that miserable dog of my boyfriend’s killing him.
He’s buried next to Negra under the tree in the back. All of my other cats are buried here as well. All have solar lights and will have flowers next spring.
My boyfriend and I are now broken up. Long story there and this is not the place for that discussion. Moving here was such a mistake. Not only am I trapped in a place I really don’t like, I lost four of my friends. I don’t like people at all; my cats are everything to me. Losing Firestar has been so hard, even after a year.
Firestar’s pet name was Kitten Guy. So in closing, I love you Kitten Guy and I am so sorry I let you down. You trusted me and you deserved so much better from me.
I was so lucky to have you as my friend and I hope that someday I’ll see you again. I’d hold you and give you a kiss and tell you how much I love you. Even if I could only have a minute it would be worth it just to hold you one more time.
I love you forever Kitten Guy. Please don’t forget that.
Rest in peace sweet kitty,
| Firestar |
| 8, Aug 2012 |
| Liz Cornish |