Spaz

Feb. 8 1995 —– Dec. 28 2000

Maltese

It’s been almost a year since my little guy

has gone to the bridge and

I still can’t believe that he is still only with me in my heart.

I got him while I worked at a local grooming shop

from a customer’s friend and

he was already a year and a half old.

I was concerned with the worries of why they might be getting rid of him.

Behavior problems etc.

But the moment I saw him it was love at first sight.

We instantly bonded and for the next five years

he was my constant companion.

Going everywhere with me.

If he did not like someone then neither did I.

He always had a good since of judgment.

As I changed jobs and added more pets

he always had a special little spot in my heart and

he knew it.

I am an inspiring groomer and it was him

that really made me want to groom.

He started it all.

I have now been a bather for almost 7 years now and

I started grooming him myself( that’s how I got started).

I made a bad decision about a boyfriend and

it cost my little man his life. I still feel sooo guilty.

I was sick with the flu and took some medicine that put me to sleep.

So while I was resting he let my dogs outside and

he did not go out with them as I did.

Well my baby made his way to the busy street

that we lived on and evidently got hit by a car.

He also did some pretty nasty things to my other babies.

Needless to say he is no longer in me or my babies life.

But it cost my little guy his life.

And if you are looking down on me I want you to know

that Momma will always love you

and I am so very sorry.

I was supposed to protect you from

all the dangers of the world and I failed terribly.

I am so sorry my little baby.

As it is nearing the anniversary of his death

I find that I am less Christmassy this year.

I miss the way you would wiggle your little but when I came home and

all the special little things you did that kept me

going through the bad times.

I will never forget the time when I got into a car wreck

(he was with me) and

you would not let the paramedics get close to me

without alot of persuasion on my part.

You was such a little stinker.

I will forever be grateful of all that you taught me.

You was such a spoiled little brat and I loved it.

And to make matters a little worse

I can’t even go put flowers on your grave

anymore because you are buried in his mothers back yard.

I buried him with his favorite blanket (one of my quilts) and his favorite toy.

I want you to know that after you died

Gee Gee (my other Maltese) took it quite hard.

But she is fine now.

Her favorite place is still to curl up on your blanket.

As I get closer to my career goals I think of you who started it all.

Thank you for being my best friend and giving me so much love.

I will always love and miss you my little Spaz.

Love Always,

Mama Gee Gee Chynna