This is a tribute to my beloved Tanner Doodle.. 🙂
I miss him so much!
Tanner came to me after the death of my Father and prior to that he was my Mom’s purpose. After my Father’s death in 1997, he became my purpose. I promised my Dad that I would take care of him .. no matter what. I did. Recently, I had to make the very difficult decision to put Tanner to sleep.. and truly it was the hardest decision of my life. I kept hoping he would pop up.. wag his little tail and all would be fine.. he didn’t .. I picked him up off the floor and he just nestled into my neck as if to say.. “just hold me”.. he was trembling from seizures .. and scared and really I didn’t know what to expect.. I was as scared as he was.
He and I had been on such a journey.. and now we were taking our final voyage together.. and I didn’t want to go.. but, I knew I didn’t want him to be in any more pain. So, we left.. on our way.. passing by my Father’s house and one final glance at where
he was before he was with me.. and we both gasped.
After letting him go, I felt a pain in my heart that I can not describe..
but I will tell you it hurt.. it hurt as much as
when I saw my Father take his last breath..
that too was much to bare.
I miss you
my precious doodle butt.
You were my light .. my love…
and my hope..
YOU WERE MY PURPOSE..
and I love you!
Love Always,
| Tanner |
| Tricia |