1997
Cat
I was two years old when Muffin came into my life.
My Mom had remarried and my step dad already had Muffin.
From the age of two there was a bond with Muffin and I.
He was my first cat and from that moment on I have always loved cats.
We did everything together which is odd. He would let me dress him up in my
doll clothes and carry him around in a basket.
Muffin was so loving and protective. As I got older we grew closer.
I have three brothers and he spend more time with me then them.
The years were passing and things were changing I was growing and
he was getting older.
When I was in high school I could not wait to come home to him.
If I was having a bad day he knew. He would not leave my side until I
would stop crying or I was laughing. He slept with me all the time
and would cuddle up right next to me.
After I had graduated from high school I spent so much time working
that I did not get to spend alot of time with him.
I will never forget our last moment together for as long as I live.
It was a very tragic day for me and has continued to haunt me to this day.
I can’t seen to find a way to let go because I still think I could
have done something for his suffering.
Now I think that it is payback to me now I must suffer.
I keep replaying the final moments of his death in my head for so
many years now. I held him as he was dying I heard him take is
last breath and felt his heart beat for the last time.
Even after he passed I continued to hold him rocking back and fourth.
As I tell you all of my story,
I want to share my sorrow with you and your lost loved one.
Death is a very hard thing no matter if human or animal.
It hurts all the same.
I hope this site helps me to let go but not ever forget Muffin.
I love you so much Muffin Man and soon I will
hold you again.
God bless everyone and thank you.
Bernadette
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