On November 19 1999 after a long hard week I came home
to find my dog Onyx very mushy. She had been acting a little odd.
She wasn’t eating like usual but she had a habit of picking
through the garbage from time to time and she would sometimes
get a little sick from eating paper or tissues.
I didn’t think too much of it but I decided to call the vet and
bring her in to get checked out.
When I got her leash to go she would not get up.
This struck me because she loved to go out no matter what.
We had to carry her to the car and this is when I started to get
a sick feeling in my stomach. I really thought she had eaten
something bad in the yard and that was making her sick.
When we got to the vet she wouldn’t get out of the car.
Little did I know then that she COULDN’T get out.
I had to have someone from the vet help me carry her in.
While she lay on the table I tried to comfort her by
petting her and talking to her.
I told her we could go home soon and her ears lifted
up telling me she wanted to go home.
When the doctor came and started to examine her she looked
at her eyes and gums and immediately determined that
she was bleeding internally from somewhere and they
had to do an X-ray right away.
The X-ray showed the bleeding was from her spleen.
She wouldn’t make it through the night. I had two options.
To put her to sleep or have them operate to see what
was going on. Of course I chose the surgery.
I would have done anything to help her.
Little did I know that I would never see her again after
they took her to x-ray. They were to operate right away
and call me to let me know what they found.
I had a sick feeling but I tried to stay hopeful.
I wasn’t home more than a half hour when the doctor
called and told me they found cancer all over my dog.
She never woke up from the surgery.
I had them put her to sleep from the anesthesia.
I was in shock because we never knew she had cancer.
She was such a trooper and she was trying to fight it herself.
My heart has been broken ever since.
Tomorrow I have to pick up her ashes.
I feel like that day is happening all over again.
She was my baby. She was the coolest dog and she was
by my side all the time.
I miss her so much and I always will.
I wish I knew so I could have made the most of those
last days with her.
I Love Her and Always will.
| Onyx |