Sadie came to me against my will.
I thought
“If I don’t get attached it won’t hurt if something happened.”
Well I tried to ignore this little Black Lab Puppy
that so desperately wanted my attention.
That lasted one day.
I remember lying on the sofa and
this little girl came up to me with those sad eyes and
wanted me to pick her up.
I tried to ignore it but she got the better of me.
I picked her up and immediately tears came into my eyes.
I could feel the love go from her heart to mine.
That day she became my world.
Almost a year has passed and Sadie and I
are like Mother and Daughter.
My vet said that she needed a playmate and
I certainly could not understand why.
Sadie was gaining too much weight and
he thought she needed someone to play with.
Well the look was on and we found Patsy.
A five week old Blonde Golden Mix seemed like the answer.
Sadie was so happy with I brought Patsy to her.
She took to Patsy as if it were her own puppy.
I remember Patsy even tried to nurse from Sadie.
Every night before bedtime
Sadie would wash Patsy and clean her ears.
When she was satisfied that
she was clean they would go off to bed.
Patsy would sleep curled up beside Sadie’s stomach.
My life was filled with joy by these two Dogs.
April 27 2001 my heart was torn out of my chest.
My Patsy left our world due to Chronic Renal Failure.
Sadie and I were heart broken.
Our lives had been changed forever.
Sadie missed Patsy and looked for her.
She would whine and I knew she missed her sister.
My heart was so shattered I could barely function.
Then less than one year later on March 27 2002 I lost my Sadie.
How can this be?
Why would God do this to me?
Sadie was never sick one day in her whole lifetime.
In a matter of two days she was gone.
I feel so confused.
The Vet said she was in Liver Kidney and Pancreas shutdown.
I had to let her go.
I looked into my Sadie’s eyes and I could see her pain.
I had to make the same decision for Patsy just less than a year ago.
I have regretted that decision ever since Patsy left my world.
I was not able to stay with her
because I would have never let her suffering end.
I hated myself for that.
I felt as if I let Patsy down by not being with her till the end.
I was so afraid that I would not be able to let go of Sadie.
On our way to the Vet I laid in the back
with my girl and told her how much I loved her.
I thanked her for loving me for all those years and
that Patsy was waiting in Heaven for her.
I held her in my arms and sang her a song
“I am your Angel.”
The sun was shining on our faces and
in my arms my Sadie drew her last breathe.
Sadie blessed my heart by leaving this world on her own and
without assistance from the Vet.
Just as our hearts exchanged love that very first day I held her
our hearts exchanged love as she laid
in my arms when her last breathe was taken.
Just the two of us nobody else there.
My two Angels are in Heaven now.
Together and happy.
I know Patsy was waiting for Sadie and
now they wait for their Mommy.
My heart will forever be broken from their absence in my life.
They gave me more love in their lifetimes
than I have ever received from any human being.
Unconditionally and without strings my girls loved their Mommy.
To Sadie and Patsy
I love your with all my heart and soul.
Please wait patiently for me
I promise I will one day come to exchange that love again.
My two beautiful Angels rest in God’s care
till I see you in Heaven.
All my Love,
Mommy {Pamela}
| Sadie |
| Pamela |