My best friend Jasper had to be put to sleep yesterday afternoon
and I feel as if my whole world has been taken away from me.
He had been diagnosed with Cutaneous Histiocytosis
which is an autoimmune disease
which was not considered life threatening and
could be treated with Prednisone.
It was this drug that ultimately took his life away and
I feel so very guilty for having giving it to him…
before I took him to the vet he was a healthy happy lovable boy.
After being put on the drug for one week he deteriorated
lost weight lost his sparkle.
Concerned I took him back to the vet
she changed his drug to Azathioprine
but he still had to be weaned off the other drug Prednisone…..
he seemed to get a little better for 2 days
and then on the evening of March 28 he deteriorated badly…
on March 29th he was put to sleep
due to pancreatitis caused by the drugs…
I am so very very guilty at having put my precious baby
through those treatments but how was I to know
I trusted my vet….
all I can say is if only I could turn back time.
I got Jasper from a dog pound as a puppy
when he was 6 weeks old.
He had been dumped in a box with his two sisters
in the woods and left to die…
luckily someone found them and took them to the dog pound…
whereupon I found Jasper and fell in love with him.
He has been through many struggles in my life
my husband I lost twins Dale and Abbie
at 6 months pregnancy in June of 1998…
the loss was unbearable and I considered suicide…
if it weren’t for the love of my husband and my dog Jasper…
I don’t think I would be here writing this.
Jasper has been my soul mate for so long.
He loved to ride with me in the car.
He loved his walks and sniffing all the new smells every day.
He had a crooked smile…which was so cute
sometimes his lip got caught on his tooth at the side and
it looked like a lopsided grin.
He loved cheese and never failed to race to the fridge
when he heard it open he loved to sniff the breeze
and he loved me and my husband unconditionally
no demands! Just pure love.
I know he is now out of pain and
I am trying to hold on to the beautiful memories…
but it is so quiet here at home…
my husband is currently in Saudi Arabia for a while…
everything is just too quiet…writing this has helped me somewhat
I just felt I had to write about my precious baby Jasper.
Jasper I love you so much and I miss you my friend..
You will always always be in my heart.
Love your mom
Janet
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