In November of 1989 my one and
only son Christopher came home for Thanksgiving.
When he walked in the door I knew something was wrong with him.
During that long weekend he told his father and
I that he had Aids and was dying.
He returned to L.A. after the weekend and
six days later the hospital called us to tell us that he had died.
Our world came to an end we went through the motions and
did what we needed to do.
Then it was over and there was nothing until that knock on the door.
It was my neighbor Alice come to see me.
In her hand was the most adorable little furbaby
a little long haired Chihuahua
She handed her to me with a big bow around her neck
and a sympathy card my face lit up and I said
“Oh Alice she is the SUNSHINE of my life”
and that when my little girl first came into our life and got her name.
My husband says that for the first six months
she didn’t hit the ground.
We would lay on the sofa together
under a blanket that eventually sunshine decided she owned.
I would cry and she would lick away my tears.
We became very attached and she would always meet me at the door
when I came home from work.
Then we became manager of a Mobile home Park in Napa California and
I would go home for lunch.
Sunshine would sit on the back of the sofa and
could see me in the office
from the big picture windows in the home.
We lived there for 10 years walking twice a day for her business.
We would always have desert together at night
before we went to bed.
She loved her vegetables green peppers
carrots even mushrooms.
She was always by my side or at my feet.
I loved her so much.
Then she got sick wouldn’t move very much ate little
we took her to the vet and she had a mass on her kidney.
We couldn’t afford to have any test or surgery done so we waited it out.
In February 2002 she showed signs of definite decline.
We just spent as much time as we could with her.
Around Feb. 25th I called the vet to have her put down the next Friday.
On Tuesday that night when I took her outside to bathroom.
She just laid on the ground I knew she would not make it to Friday.
That night at 2:00 AM I woke up and
she was laying next to me dead
I screamed.
It’s now March 27th and I am still crying.
It hurts so very bad. She was my best friend.
She meant the world to me.
She helped me through so much pain
just being there for me always.
I miss you Sunshine.
You will always be in my heart and mind.
Nothing or no one will ever replace you.
Rest in peace my little girl and I will meet you at the Bridge.
Carol & George
| Sunshine |
| Carol & George Barnas |