June 2 1989 —- Jan. 24 2001
Pomeranian
Hello Toby this is mummy writing to you.
I know you have your tributes and stories on this lovely site
but I have been thinking about you and the life we shared together
and mummy just wanted to say hello and write you this letter.
When I first saw you I fell in love with you straight away you were the only
boy in a litter of three the other pups were girls your owner said after I had
chosen you that he thought no-one would want you as you were a boy
and jet black. But I only had eyes for you you were to young to
leave your mummy and so I left you there.
But went back a week later to see you I held you in my arms
you were so tiny then you jumped fell out of my arms and
landed on your head.
I was so worried that you had hurt yourself but you seemed ok.
Well when you were old enough you came home to live with me but what a little
hand full you were I never knew that anything so small could wriggle so much.
I used to wonder if you were ok you used to travel to the vets in a cat basket ,
because you wouldn’t stay still at all but oh how I loved you you were
my little baby and you could jump so well everyone said you
didn’t have legs you had springs instead.
I had to fence everything off to keep you in I smile now Toby when I think
of you you even had a play pen for when I was cooking meals.
Then when you got older you started to have a lot of tummy problems
it took me and your vet a long time to find a food that didn’t upset you.
It hurt me so because I wanted to give you little treats but couldn’t because
you would end up in such pain that’s why you didn’t have the treats that
other dogs had and I tried to make it up to you by giving you extra love.
When we used to go in the car you had to have a seat belt on because
once again you never stayed still.
Then because you couldn’t eat biscuits and chews like other dogs
just soft food your little teeth became bad and you had to go have some out ,
that worried me as well but you were so lovely and for once you
were good as if you knew.
Then Lassie came to live with us you loved her I was worried about
bringing her home but she gave you a new lease of life for the
next two years you were like a puppy again.
We all said that but for lassie you would have been gone sooner
than you were then I noticed you were not very well again you seemed
to go old all at once and you were doing some very strange things
not nice things Toby you would have been so ill if I had let you
carry on as you were.
Our family told me what you were doing and I didn’t believe them,
then one day you showed me yourself I knew then that our life together
was at an end you were such a proud little soul that I could not let you
lose your dignity your vet said that you were not happy and well if you were
doing those things you could have died in agony that’s why I let you go ,
because I loved you but you know Toby when I look back I think that the
fall you had on your head when you were a baby did you some
harm in your brain I always said it and now I think it even more.
I saw your vet the other day and we were talking about you he said you
were a character and so you were but a very lovable one.
All your family loved you and I worshiped the ground you walked on.
I won’t forget you darling mummy will always love you and I
know you loved me also.
So for now Toby goodnight sleep well and always remember that
I am proud to be called Toby’s mum.
I was your mummy and you were my special boy.
Good-bye darling until we meet again,
lots of love forever.
From,
Mummy and Lassie
xx
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