I am 15 years old and so is my loving loyal companion.
Bethany has been my sister and my mother’s baby.
We lost Bethany’s brother last year.
It was the hardest things in the world for us.
We knew Bethany’s fate wasn’t looking well.
But I at least never felt these days would come.
I look at her and I wonder
if I could have been a more loving sister to her.
I’m just realizing that I might have taken her for granted.
I am so worried about my mom.
I love her so much.
It’s so hard to see the ones you love the most cry.
I never felt so helpless.
I can’t believe the things we have done for her
how much love we have given her.
She and her brother are
the most amazing creatures god could have ever given us.
We are so sad and scared because it feels like were loosing
a family member and I am so selfish.
She’s in so much pain and all I want is to keep holding on to her.
She is a little bit older than me and
I have never been without her for all of my life.
This is torture in the worst way.
I have learned death brings people together and
I feel so much closer to my mom and finally Bethany.
Just a little to late.
I remember when I was little I used to lock them in my room.
I read them stories and I used to have doggy picture day
where I would dress them up.
Bethany will finally get to see the ones I miss so much.
She will see Petey her other brothers and sisters and my daddy.
For that sometimes I’m jealous that she can go and I can’t.
I love you mommy so much and
you love reading these stories
because they help you
I hope I have you have helped you too.
I’ll be your friend not only your daughter.
Being a teen isn’t easy and I’m sorry
I haven’t always been there for you and Bethany
as much as I would have liked.
I love you mom and Bethany.
I’ll see you soon lil girl.
I’ll always love you and your brother.
You will be well taken care of in heaven.
Daddy will be there for you Bethany so have no fear.
I love you and I can’t believe this is goodbye.
I know realize how much you are suffering and
I know this is for the best.
Goodbye my only sister and loving lil girl.
Kerry
| Bethany |
| Kerry |